Not Looking Back

Life changes in two speeds for me, one being so slow that I feel I am almost moving backwards and two being so fast that I am trying not to blink so that I wont miss it. Right now my life is moving in high gear and I am finally working on my career with a new company and trying to learn at this immense learning curve. Then come the curve balls, friends moving into new life transitions of their own and doing my best to be happy and excited for them as they leave West Texas and into their own careers and lives.

I am not going to start looking back and living in memories because I do not want to miss my new memories that are being made as I am living every moment. Sometimes it is so hard to keep focused on your present that the past and the future collide and put you into a tailspin toward a mind boggling worry. So my goal right now is to keep focusing on where God has placed ME and that I am walking in his grace and in his provisions and that everything else will fall into place.

It is hard to say goodbye though... and I dont fully understand why we have to do that at certain points in our lives except to be reminded that this is NOT OUR FINAL HOME! This is just our blink before we reach our paradise with no goodbyes. There are some days I do want to blink and just GO HOME, but I know that I will be home in His time and until that point I just want to be faithful and do my job here. Lord take care of Gracie until we see her again, and please be with my dear friend as her life begins in a new direction.